i don't want to be pretty anymore

this was quite a difficult episode for me. for the first time, i
felt like it was really hard for me to express what this feeling
is about. it’s not actually about the way i look — it’s about
what trying to look good is connected to. my looks define my
self-worth, the way i feel (good and bad), and whether i’m
confident or not.


who am i when i’m not trying to look my best? who am i when i’m
just me, without trying to be anything?


i don’t really have advice here. it’s just something i wanted to
share, because i feel like so many of us struggle with this
superficial, performance-driven pressure. or at least i do.