The Moment I Realised My First Violation Was Still Driving Me

What if the first time they crossed your boundary
never actually ended?


What if your body’s still living there—
in the freeze, the silence, the smile you learned to fake
so they wouldn’t leave?


This week’s Patreon voice note is about the moment I realised I
wasn’t making empowered choices—I was still choosing safety over
truth.
Not because I’m broken.
But because my body never got to finish the story.


We’re going into trauma, touch, dissociation, and why survival
adaptations can look a lot like self-abandonment in disguise.


For the ones who’ve done the work—
but still flinch when it’s time to be real.


Now live.


xx Josi





Socials: Jo_Oswin


www.ginkgominds.com