Okay But It’s Mesmerizing

Okay but it’s heartbreaking here, overall. There’s missing you. And
then there’s missing you. Okay but it’s also mesmerizing--when I
don’t hear from you. A mirage of sawdust rises from my fingertips
trapped in the ridges of my fingerprints like stories rivers, just
whatever is left of the memory I have of the stunning temperature
you pressed into my lips. What can compete with that? The law of
averages cannot apply here. You can’t average this out, we’re 50
points ahead, at least! At least… you haven’t forgotten me. That’s
what your handwriting told me. Red penned ink forced into my collar
bones. Oh wow how you loved them. Oh my how it felt. Tell me about
my bones once more. Tell me how much you love them. Tell me about
my bones once more. Tell me again how we met... you said to tell
you what I was thinking I was thinking why isn’t she kissing me.