“I Still Feel Rex Is Here” — Gilgo Killer's Wife, Asa Ellerup’s Grief and Denial, Analyzed by the FBI

“I Still Feel Rex Is Here” — Gilgo Killer's Wife, Asa
Ellerup’s Grief and Denial, Analyzed by the FBI

In Segment 3, we enter the emotional core of the Gilgo Beach
case. As Asa Ellerup walks through the remnants of her raided
home, she says something haunting: “I still feel Rex is here.”
It’s not just grief—it’s denial, memory, and psychological trauma
colliding all at once.

Tony Brueski and former FBI behavioral expert Robin Dreeke
examine what happens when someone’s entire identity is built
around a man who may not have ever existed in the way she
believed. Dreeke draws from deep behavioral analysis to explain
Asa’s apparent inability to accept the allegations—even in the
face of overwhelming evidence.

This segment also introduces another powerful voice: Victoria
Heuermann, the daughter of Rex and Asa. Caught between the loving
father who built her a dollhouse and the man now accused of being
a serial killer, Victoria represents a generational split in how
trauma is processed. She openly admits she feels torn—stating she
both loves and hates her father.

We explore how denial, trauma bonding, and emotional survival
play out across generations. Dreeke draws comparisons to Kerri
Rawson, daughter of BTK killer Dennis Rader, and discusses how
individuals come to terms—or refuse to—with the dark truths
inside their families.

Through Asa’s refusal to ask questions and Victoria’s cautious
acceptance of reality, we see the full spectrum of psychological
responses in the wake of extreme betrayal. This isn’t just about
the crimes. It’s about what happens when your past is rewritten
in real time—and you're left to pick up the pieces.

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