There isn't always a safe place, but you have to speak into yourself and circumstance.

I can relate to being down and out. There's not always a person, a
go to, or a quick solution. The ones that say they had you in these
times are no where to be found. Family has turned there backs on
you and you don't want to be on a spiritual high. I get it its you
vs you and you for you. Your thoughts and how you think of yourself
is dangerous you have to know a little pressure in weakness always
identifies true strength. YOU got this just think and move
differently in your season.